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Why Does Putting Myself First Feel So Bad?
By | Oct 23, 2014

The last year of engineering school, I worked my tail off.  I had studied so hard, and was looking forward to giving myself a graduation present.  . My friend Penelope and I planned to take a road trip from Missouri to Florida.  I had never seen the ocean so I was really excited.  For a whole year I carried around a postcard of a Daytona Beach sunset. The night before our trip, though, as I was packing my suitcase my mother tried to make me feel guilty for leaving. The next morning, when Penelope arrived to pick me up, I used every ounce of strength I had to walk out that front door and not look back. We had the trip of a lifetime – I got the chance to see that sunset and swim in the ocean for the first time.  But I had also absorbed the message that spending money on myself is bad.  Ever since, I have been all too willing to accept the short end of the stick, to pass on opportunities to invest in myself.

Earlier this year, I attended a conference that inspired me to enroll in an expensive writing class. My face flushed just thinking about spending that much money on myself and I hesitated.  I had to really push myself to ignore the negative self-talk and to move forward.   Not only did I sign up for the class, I also cautiously shared my long-term vision with my husband.  He was totally supportive and enthusiastically helped me think through the commitment of time and money I would have to make.  Just knowing that he had my back was enough to make me start singing!

A week ago, I spoke to a group of college students about what I wish I had known at age 25. I shared that I would have invested more strategically in my professional development. I challenged them to set a goal of attending at least one conference related to personal or professional growth every year.

 Now, I am extending this challenge to you.  If you are like me, and have tended to put everyone else’s needs above yours, resolve to take care of you.  .  Is there something that inspires you? Don’t hesitate to go for it.  You don’t need anyone’s permission.  It is not a choice between “selfish” and ‘selfless”.  The goal is to live life without regrets.


Guest Blogger Cherrie K. Fisher serves as the Vice President of the Society of Women Engineers - Dallas Section. She is a Technology Professional at AT&T with over 25 years of experience.  You may contact her directly via LinkedIn at Cherrie Kimbrough Fisher or on Twitter @WorkFromPurpose.   The postings on this site are her own and do not necessarily represent AT&T’s or SWE’s positions, strategies or opinions.


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“It’s about trusting your inner self, listening to yourself. That’s what it took me nearly fifteen years to work out, to learn to listen to myself.”  Yvonne Jackson EHNC page 191